love of my life

to you...
Looking at the photos that I have of you in my drawer makes me miss you so so much.. you always came to visit us during the October period, you came over every two years. Last year I was looking forward for your arrival during the same October period but it never happened. Trips to the old Clarke Quay (it has changed so much in the last ten years), day trip to Sentosa (don't think the dragon attraction is there anymore). i miss your cooking. it feels just like yesterday...

to another you...
at a ripe old age, you are more energetic than those who are your age or perhaps even those who are 10 years younger than you. How we spent every chinese new year at your place. at a ripe old age of 80 u came over to visit us to ensure we have settled down, you came twice even. I gave up my room to you so that you could have a proper bed to sleep on though the guest room is on the 3rd room, i slept in it instead not wanting you to climb all the way up to the 3rd floor. you'll always give me $$ to buy the things that i want each time i see you even though i kept saying no need $$. i love eating dimsum together with you. how during the last few years we will go visit you and you talk the loudest in the home even at 90+ of age, how we will wheel you just to eat dimsum. you love us visiting you because you are so sick of the home.. how the last 1 year plus u spent at a separate home and we have to feed you because u no longer could do so..it just pains so us. i will NEVER forget this: u used all your strength just to call out my name...

apologies for being emo