Saturday, December 31, 2005

I wrote this when i couldn't come online.
This is the last hour of 2005. Another chapter of my life will soon closes, leaving behind the good and the bad times. 2005 has been an eventful year. First semester, being the most senior batch, others expect more from you. Moreover, as a prefect and a council member, having to juggle also with the post as the president of choir has not been easy. With SYF and all, there were countless times that i just could not take it and broke down. And not forgetting the stress. But thinking back now, those difficulties that i faced moulded me into a better person and the values that i've learnt are priceless.

Looking at second semester now, no doubt it was the most grueling period. We had to mug real hard for prelims and Os. Retired from prefectorial board, choir and council, but still, am emotionally attached to them.

2005. Not forgetting the people i've met throughout my eight years in SAC. Most importantly, the people that i've met in my secondary school life. they played a big part in my life. My encouragers, and my friends and all. Thank you for giving me the opportunity to know you all. you guys had made a difference in my life. You all made me realised how much i mean to all of you. thanks for being there for me, for lending me that shoulder that I needed. without you all, I probably have gone crazy and stuck in my own thoughts.

Here's a message to all of you:
vann: Thanks for all these while darling(=. For being there to encourage me always. I'm really glad that our friendship grew stronger even though we were in different classes in sec 3. there are just too many things to say. i love you (=

weiqin: remember our hottest topic ever? that _ _ _ _ ? Thanks for listening to my crap and showing me your affection openly!(= You shall be 'C' okay?(= And really, thanks for tonight weiwei. i love you(=

siewcheng: 'B'! (= parn-da. But not the little one anymore(= i love you. There are so many things that I want to say. thanks for everything. I'll never forget those wonderful times, and thanks for tonight as well!(=

charmane: cow! I haven't seen you for a long long time. How have you been? even thoughwe are not very close, i am still grateful to have met you(=

diyanah: LION!(= I'll never forget how fierced you were. heh.I'll never forget how we dreaded to go for council meetings too. And those fun times together!

linette: pigpig!(= thanks for being there for me. i'm really really glad to have met you!(= i love you

Last but not least.. the six:
hey guys!really really thanks for everything. It's the end of the year and we all have to part, but it's just part of our lives. We'll still meet someday. I will always remember those silly jokes that we laughed at. How we always sat on the floor during recess at the back of the canteen. How sometimes, our usual seat on the floor was taken by others. there were times that we almost sat under the sun to eat. How slow wei was and her don't waste time.(= how contagious nette's laughter was. How char mug for mid-years. how noisy cheng was. how mad didi went. How we get into our group of six during group work and our geog song!((= Really really thanks for playing a part in my secondary school life. i love you guys. (:
just something to add.
I was on the phone with adlin at 1 am plus.yar. Our late night talks(= We talked about lots of stuff. And the term "letting go". she made me realise how much i mean to her, i had tears in my eyes when she actually told me that. And that sweet girl, she say she'll call the special-est of the special people when she reached melbourne on the 10th feb(= and she came up with around 10 names.haha. Had a talk about prefects and we were talking about those night duties. how dead and tired we were after night duties. and when we were sec 3, the council made the temporary new council in charge of the sec 2 parents' night. We were running around the whole night to make sure everything ran well. we did refreshments. We wanted to split the work, i was suppose to do the 1st and 2nd floor, and she was suppose to do the 3rd and 4th floor. But somehow, in the end, we did everything together.
oh well.
those memories.
i actually wrote this down when i couldn't come online last night, but you can ignore it, it's quite redundant.

30 dec 05 23:35
I was okay. But the moment before I knew it, i went into a sudden depression. yes, just suddenly. I even thought of going to sleep and not wake up again. I know it's a silly thought. Am I depriving myself from it? I don't know but i don't want to influence anybody.

Anyway, i'm alright now(= thanks nic, sc n adlin.

Alrights, happy new year's eve!(=

Friday, December 30, 2005

adlin looks so much more feminine now(= darling i think you should continue to dress like this!!(= you look nicer(= reebok top, jacket, jeans, sport shoes, a nice bag and dangling earrings!(= you finally found your feminine side girl. haha. I hope she doesn't kill me if she reads this. And she did this ultra random thing when she got off bus 100. haha. she went "ta-da!" plus some actions-_-. lol. whee. see, i told you im gonna blog this. heys adlin, thanks for today yar?For popping by shops with me to see if i can get a part-time job.(= love you girl.-muacks

I hope gramophone accepts me.(=

I had delicious delifrance for lunch!yay!(= siew cheng didn't get it!yay. bleah.=p evil me.

Oh! do you know who is chris? I would love to know. barhh. i shall drop that now.

p.s. im fetching parn-da from work tmr!yay(= im a nice person. lalala.see you guys tmr(=

Wednesday, December 28, 2005

kbox today(= And I saw jocelyn wu working at kbox. Other than that, I saw a few others too. Sue-ann, melissa, michelle and genie, and siying. But most importantly, i saw siew cheng!parn-da, i miss you lots lots. I was so happy to see you(=. thanks for promoting SB's chicken pie, it's really yummy! I can't wait for the next time to see you. 31st yar? (=

I'll be having a haircut tomorrow. heh. I still don't know if i'm going out with room tomorrow. I miss room a lot. It has been a long time since the four of us went out. guohui and i were saying that if both vann and matt can't make it, then it'll be RO outing. hah.(= anyway.

I finally had my nails cut. So after dinner at simei, i went back home to practise piano. I played 2 movements of Ravel, it was quite alright. I tried the 3rd movement. it's the most difficult one. oh my. All the notes everywhere!!=| I attempted one page and then switched to play Chopin's Etudes. No problem with right hand except those 6 bars which I played for over ten times and caused my hand to ache. Accidentals everywhere. I was frustrated as usual, but I pushed myself. After playing for more than ten times and when I finally got it for the 1st time, i was like YAY. My mum asked me what's wrong. haha. I was just expressing my joy.(= therefore I continued playing many times more. 45 minutes of practise.

If you have a bible, read proverbs 2:1-9.(= if not click here for the link.

Tuesday, December 27, 2005

we walk by faith, not by sight. -2 Cor 5:7

that's something I came across today. We entrust our faith to God.(= Trust in God in whatever you do, moreover, nothing is impossible with God(=

I finally get to see parn-da tomorrow after not seeing her for 22 days. Finally(= parn-da, i miss you a whole lot. yay.

alrights. that's all.i dont feel like updating anymore.heh.

Monday, December 26, 2005

I got this from a web. This is something to think about.

Love needs expression:

Somehow the command to love doesn't get through to us. We may confess that we lack a strong faith, but seldom do we admit that we are deficient in love. Perhaps we feel we're as loving as the next person, and maybe a little bit more.

After all, we're sensitive to the hurts of other people. Our hearts go out to battered wives and abused children when we read about them in the newspaper. We shift uneasily in front of our TVs when we see little children sobbing with hunger or sitting in silent despair beyond crying.

But deep inside we know that genuine caring reaches beyond feelings to action. Caring, like steam or electricity, isn't worth much unless something happens as a result of it. Love without deeds is useless, just as talent not demonstrated in creative ways is wasted. Both must be expressed or they are no better than a myth.

Because we can't do everything, we often don't do anything. If you want to be a loving person, don't start by taking on the needs of the whole world. Start with caring about one person and build from there.

i wrote this on the 11th dec when i was just thinking about some stuff.
"you're a big girl now"(quoted from uncle simon). Indeed i am. i'm v fortunate to get to know God even though i come from a non-Christian fammily. And I am extrremely grateful for this. With encouragement from my brothers and sisters, i grow spiritually day by day. Under the guidance of God, I began to overcome new things. Moreover, with God, nothing is impossible! Christmas is exactly in two weeks! I am very excited! It's because i'll be going to Christmasland(= And I really hope, not just hope, i want to attend regular service in church. Despite hearing rejections, I managed to ask mum about it. What shocked me was, i asked without any hesitation!(= Whatever it is, I just want to thank God for being there for me, holding my hand and walking this journey with me. Without You, I will not be here. Therefore I say, thank you(=

A late Merry Christmas to one and all(=. I enjoyed myself on the 24th. Having saved for a year and 2 days now, has changed me. It's really amazing of what God can do in one person's life. I'm glad that matthew came(=. I haven't seen him for quite a long time. The whole service was great(=. When we sang O Holy Night, I had tears in my eyes. The presence of God was so strong in the hall. I shook hands with people around me and wished them Merry Christmas when we sang Feliz Navidad(=

I saw xuelin!(= I miss xue. I haven't seen her since umm..a long time. She still messes my hair and touch my face to say that my skin is still as smooth as last time-.- .We actually stood there and talked for more than 5 minutes.heh.(:

Three cheers for vj choir(= I enjoyed your last session of caroling today. Daniel was caroling as well. heh. anyway. it was really enjoyable(=

I'm glad that i cleared those thoughts. Actually, i felt that you have the right to know. So i'm happy that i'm not hiding it from you anymore. I might have hurt you from what i said, i'm sorry. Whatever it is, thanks for being a great friend. I never regret knowing you. Thanks for letting me know how you feel now, at least now i do know how you feel. And once again, congratulations for getting into nj. room outing this week okay?i miss room. a lot. till then, take good care. see you soon(=

a msg to parn-da: i miss touching your rubbery parts((=love you parn-da(=

Thursday, December 22, 2005

hello.(= i'm using free internet access at some shopping centre again. Today's temperature is 10 to 14 deg. hmmm. i can't wait to be back!!Because it'll be Christmas then(= lalala.

Oh btw, siew cheng, adlin, did weiqin call you all? if not, call her yar?Ask her about fri night. alrights?

king kong later with dad and bro.(= yay
December is coming to an end. this means that i need to think of what i'll do for my 1st 3 months.-scratches head. i have no idea.=/ oh well. congrats to those who got into toh tuck(=, but that means i can't go out with you all as often.barhh. nvm, weekends!!(=

alrights i gtg. take care all.I'm coming back tomorrow(=

Wednesday, December 07, 2005

hello.!I'm in hk now(= yay. hmmm. i won't be back until the 23rd yar?take care all(=
ten days.

Tuesday, December 06, 2005

this is the fourth day that i'm back and i'm off tomorrow to hong kong this time and only be back on 23rd dec. Just in time for christmas!(= I seriously can't wait for christmas. there's christmas service, there's vj carolling and 24th dec is the one year.(= i can't wait.

oh. thanks jil for the songs(= and thank me for the photos too!!haha.

why the hesitation still?it has almost been a year.

Monday, December 05, 2005

quoted from my brother's blog.

7 things I plan to do before I die:
1. to serve Him
2. get married
3. have kids
4. to draw even nearer to Him
5. "love my neighbours" even more
6. get baptise
7. be more inquisite

7 things I can do:
1. Play piano
2. Play guitar
3. sing
4. lead a group
5. be a listener
6. counsel people
7. be nice to people around me

7 things I cannot do:
1. be mean and arrogant
2. drive
3. talk to a stranger
4. backstab another person
5. pretend to look happy when in fact i'm not
6. write reflection within 10 minutes
7. stay awake until 5am

7 things that attract me to the opposite sex:
1. hair
2. eyes
3. smile
4. friendly
5. funny
6. how they dress
7. how they present themselves

7 things that I say most often:
1. haha
2. umm..
3. alrights
4. okay
5. eh?
6. lalala
7. ahhh

7 celebrity crushes:
1. junyang
2. shawn yue
3. edision chen
4. nicholas tse
5. lin jun jie
6. nicky from westlife
7. shane from westlife

7 people I want them to do this "7" thingy:
1. siew cheng
2. nicholas
3. vanessa
4. adlin
5. linette
6. weiqin
7. nathaniel

yups.Last christmas last night was great. And vann is attracted to rayner sang solo(= I saw daniel tong. Oh my goodness. I got a shock!! you mean he got in vj?he was on stage as well but i didn't see him. the girls were great too!(= vj choir is just so united right vann? Chicken Little tomorrow and lights at our REAL orchard road at night. yay. i can't wait!(=

ummm.. photos for prague will be up soon okay?(=

Saturday, December 03, 2005

I'm back from Prague(=. But i already misses it. The city is so beautiful.
oh. we clinched a GOLD.
yups a gold.

And I can't sleep!!oh!Last Christmas tomorrow(=. I'm looking forward to it. yuppie!
Alrighty.I've actually uploaded the photos into the computer but have yet to put it into the album, but i'll do it another day okay?

take care all.
I miss you guys.

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

You are a Believer

You believe in God and your chosen religion.

Whether you're Christian, Muslim, Jewish, or Hindu..

Your convictions are strong and unwavering.

You think your religion is the one true way, for everyone.

i got this quiz from my bro's blog. so yups.

-yawns. i'm sleepy.heh. Last night i was quite emotional so i ended up talking to adlin on the phone. She's such a darling.(= And now i know who that courtshoe belongs to, haha. It's eunice's. lol. it's so funny.haha.

I'm off to Prague tonight, so this blog will be dead until i'm back.hah. so yups. take care guys(=

Sunday, November 20, 2005


I went ultra high after seeing junyang!!Oh my goodness!!-screams.haha.There were six of them, junyang, sugi, kelly, sin huey, chanel and derrick((=. whoopee! Luckily I brought my camera, if not. Oh btw, we saw cassan and ping too, as usual, cheng and me went to beat them and they screamed. This man in front of cassan and ping got a shocked and turned back. haha. Today was so much more fun than friday. ahhh. JUNYANG!!((=. here are the pics.that's kelly(=she's trying to paste the label on her yellow tube dress.hah.(=kelly!(=JUNYANG and sugi(=sin huey(=sin huey and chanel!(=
sin huey and derrick(=
sugi, JUNYANG!!, derrick, kelly, sin huey and chanel(=

Those are all the photos. OH!!I had a mini neoprint spree with panda too(=.yay. I really enjoyed myself today. thankies parn-da.i love you*hugs

Saturday, November 19, 2005



陪我去走 自昨日蕩韆鞦
到那積雪漸厚 到我有點成就
能贏盡多少豐收 遍踏地球


陪我去走 自昨日蕩韆鞦
到那積雪漸厚 到我有點成就
能贏盡多少豐收 遍踏地球
難及這份愛直到永久 從前伴著盪韆鞦
到那積雪漸厚 到我有點成就
能贏盡多少豐收 遍踏地球
The song above is very nice, though it's in cantonese. You want the song?ask me(=
mcq!i hardly did any.=/ And yar, new template.
Hmmm. are you guys free on wed for lunch?Our big feast remember?can we make it on wed?please. contact siewcheng! or me.(=

I went far east square with mum just now, had yummy japanese ramen(=.
There are so many many things that I want to do, like meet up with room, kbox with wingyi, outings with them. But i think i can only do that when I'm baack from prague and hong kong.And yar, shirs, if you're reading this, the 10 bucks. don't forget!!(=

You are my King, always and forever!(=
We did hit the malls yesterday. But we were quite bored. so yarr.
mcq!heh.i dont even feel like doing it anymore, but no. i have to.(=

Thursday, November 17, 2005

1 more paper and just 5 more days!I kind of miss sing post alr. heh. those pretty photos that i took with my lil panda(= Ohoh. Hey guys!When is your big feast?!?!haha. Hmmm. we made it to the finishing line, though it's not exactly finished, but yar.well done(=Hmmm. i have some photos up.Two of the photos were taken at sing post by panda.take a look at the art.haha.what is that?haha. it's a pig that panda drew.haha. nice eh?=p opps.haha(=And what is this?haha. i wonder what she's
oh jil!thanks for the toki gong score(=You even wrote my name.heh.thanks.
Alrights!bugis with them tomorrow!YAY(= shop shop!lalala.
oh. don't mind if this entry is quite ruined by the 1st 2 photos.haha.=x opps.

Wednesday, November 16, 2005

Os GEOG is over!heh. that was a typo error. opps. But in another six days, Os will be over!(= 1,2,6,9.(= lalala. Hmmm. I hope i can pass combine humanities with at least a B. heh.Anyway, thank God that I had the energy to speed study tourism and i finished it in 22 minutes.I couldn't believe that i could do that.heh. So only slept at 1.50am. but i still managed to wake up at 6.30am to give 5 calls to siewcheng, who apprently was still sleeping after the fourth call.haha. i was expecting some harder stuff for geog, it's so much easier compared to what ms tan had set these two years. Ohoh!!Talking about Ms Tan, she was SO supportive!I guess she wants her distinctions(=. She bought sandwiches and packets of milo for us! So supportive unlike _ _ _ _*. I don't want to talk about _ _ _ _*. barhh.

Studied at sing post with parn-da.And we saw one vj guy stoned ever since we started lunch until we almost finish our lunch he was still stoning. hmmm..oh, jane joined us. tskk. that girl was so hyper!haha. She did the choir warm-up thingy and this auntie looked at So embarrassing.=| And then i don't know why, my pencil case just dropped into the fountain.HAHA. So i had to pick up all the things, pens, pencils, guitar picks, ruler, compass. oh my goodness.haha.=/

2nd last paper tmr!(= I seriously cant wait for tomorrow. ohoh. and btw, i found a new prague buddy!yay. my darling baboon(=So that's how hard i study. haha. i was umm. doing amaths while parn-da took it with jane in white. beside me. and the fountain on the other for today guys(=

God's love has no limits(=
AHH!!That was shocking.hah.but thx bro(=

Monday, November 14, 2005

just some additional thing. this is how my desktop looks like now!i think it's nice.heh.(=lalala(=heh. is it nice?haha.okay nvm.(=
First person i msg after my lit paper was linette!!oh my goodness. I was so so happy!!Prayers answered(= thanks nette nette(: Throughout the whole paper, I was waiting for 9.20am to come so that I can quickly go out of the hall and msg linette to tell her about the good news(= I think the lit paper went quite well for the first time, if i can get a B3, i'll very happy. okay well, i don't know. But i gave my best. yup.

Did something unusual today. Went to bedok central with shirs as she wanted to buy her shorts.-_-. But in the end she didn't buy one, so we took train home. Alighted at tanah merah and I was thinking what way of transport to go home, cab or bus. Actually I've decided to take a cab, but as I was going up the escalator, I suddenly had the urge to walk home from the mrt station.heh. and so i did.(= I felt really happy about it. Walked past two playgrounds and yar. I started thinking about a lot of things, but generally, I was still very happy when I reached home.

Met parn-da to study plus take photos.haha.We did geog and amaths. Those RV qns!!eee. haha. Thanks for everything today parn-da(=. "orchard road!!" We even had our early christmas photo taking.haha.want to see some of the photos?(=yups. look below!(=plus some photos that I took when I reached home.heh.I was quite yups.
so yups!Amaths tomorrow so i'm gonna do amaths now. take care all. 4 more papers yar(= it'll be over soon!
parn-da->thanks for today yar?(= I had fun(=

Sunday, November 13, 2005

music: pok pok alimpako- RI
(=I did G paper 2 today. After blogging i'm gonna study lit whilst waiting for mum to come back. I'm hungry!heh.Above is amaths model papers, and we were supposedly to do one paper per week but somehow.yarr.haha.
twelfth night!
ahhh..i miss my hui ge!haha.actually, i miss ROOM.yar. it has been quite some time since we had ROOM outing. maybe in dec?(=
I don't know why but I'm blogging so frequently.I can't wait for tomorrow to come!!right shirs?(= i can see them and toh!yay.(= I kinda miss toh after not seeing him for a couple of months. And I still remember ms lye.though i didn't really liked her in the past but she was great, and that was how our Choral Excellence was kept. ahhh.influenza jab, where are you!?!

((: I'm finally done with my lit!YAY(= Not the studying part, but the notes part. lalala. Characters and themes.Oh btw, my bro'll be coming back on wed!(= Alrights i gtg now.
I suddenly miss hk so much. thanks ah. theodore. I can't wait for 7th dec!!Shopping!!YAY!!(=.haha. and i just found out something freaky.haha.want to noe?ask me! And i didn't know there is this cyberport place in hongkong which is only 15 minutes walk from pokfulam(where i used to lived). oh my goodness.haha.

I'm 3/4 done with my lit. I need to sleep early you see. So yar. i shall continue when I wake up!
good nights

Saturday, November 12, 2005

editedtoday is 12th nov right? i slept at 12am this morning and woke up at 12pm. so in total i slept for 12 hours. plus today's date is 12th.hah.=Dedited
(: shirs and I decided to pop by choir on monday. yay.So before that we're gonna study amaths.whee(=
O Lord, I ask you to watch over me and to guide me. I thank you for your guidance for this whole week. I shall do my part and let You do the rest. Thank you for answering my prayers.(:

Friday, November 11, 2005

editedjust another photo.heh. it's taken before i went out for dinner.lalala. white gio top plus denim skirt n belt.heh.(=edited
title: make merry with cranberry!
Whee.(= Make merry with cranberry.heh. It is the special edition of bodyshop's body butter!!(= I went shopping with my mum on thursday at novena square.yay(= umm.yar shopping.heh.It was my first time stepping my feet in novena square and all the escalators.lalala. hair mechanics looks so high-class. (=
I bought this at siglap, and i actually mistakened it as origami's post-it.-_- barhhh.haha.But i can use it as origami paper, it's not that bad actually. the green part is pretty!!(=come let me show you what i did with one of the green post-it.((=So yup. see that?haha. i think to update blog and put really really random stuff is quite fun(=.haha. ahhh. im going mad.

Today is umm. friday!! Finally one week is gone and -counts 8 papers are gone!!yay yay. it'll end soon. it'll end soon. Kingshaw's suicide didn't come out today, was kind of disappointed, heh. So i chose the one on how an atmosphere of fear is being built up because i am left with no other choice, i am not very steady with the relationship between mr hooper and mrs kingshaw. Moreover i didn't know how to answer the pbq, so yups. The prose was on war and i didn't understand it so i did the poetry which was more friendly to me. weiqin did the prose and the pbq. and yar!Talking about this kangaroo, go and see a doctor please. and get well soon okay(=-hugsSo yup!Another 5 more papers but it will be stretched all the way to the 22nd. Never mind, i'm looking forward to 17th!!(=And there are a couple of reasons behind yups(=17th!heh. The above is what is left for next week's monday to thursday and 22nd.Finally it's one paper a day. Os is ending very soon yar. jiayou everybody!(=

adlin->heys darling. thanks yar(= love you
nic->yups. thanks to you too(=
siewcheng->!!!Our big feast is coming up!yay yay!and yarr. congrats. you cleared bio(=

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

Just another random thing. You see the candles guys?Look for the one that u gave me!!(=lalala

hello. i'm here to update again(= I had three papers today. English paper 1 and 2 and physics. English was challenging so yar don't talk about it. As for physics, it's more difficult than chemistry but it was quite alright.Please please, let me pass English./=

Her letter made me so so so touched. she made me realised how much i mean to her and all the wonderful times we had together. thanks darling(= love you

hmmm.. all the best to all the geog girls and bio girls yar?(=

Below are just some random stuff.heh.This is what is left on monday at the start of Os. And below is what is left now(=Look at what i drew after my physics paper.haha. Seriously i was quite bored. And the electromagnetic induction plus the a.c. generator didn't come out at all!!All those memorising.bleah. I wrote 2 verses down too. John 14:6 "I am the way the truth and the life." And the other one from James "Resist the devil and he will flee away from you" yups.Now you can tell how bored i was.heh.
The above is what the emaths teachers discussed that may come out on friday, but we were advised to study everything. so..yar.

vj openhouse!that pretty sticker(= 151005The 3 sweet prefect juniors of mine gave me this notebook(=thankies.

okay that's all for the random stuff this week. i am going to do my emaths yar?take care everyone.and yup, it's 8 more days!whee.(=

"Charm is deceitful and beauty is passing, but a woman who fears the Lord, she shall be praised" (Proverbs 31:30).

Tuesday, November 08, 2005

Hmmm. Os had officially started.
emaths 1
social studies

emaths 2
lit 1
lit 2
amaths 1
amaths 2
sci mcq
You can see how fast my Os is gonna end. haha.But well, I believe that it'll end quite fast, in another ummm..-counts fourteen days and I can be free. I seriously can't wait. The big feast with the gang and all those outings.Plus the europe tour on the 23rd(=.okay. shuyun just told me something, that i'm not playing the piano anymore.haha. that means i have to sing aizu bandaisan!!oh my goodness!imagine all those dynamics.ahhh.=/But it will be fun(= But i think it will still make a difference because she's not going anymore, all those things that we've planned over the phone. Those things that i got so excited about. But nvm, i will still go out with you right darling(=?Remember okay?3rd december. I will keep telling you until it gets into your head.hah.(=

to a special group of people->hmmm. i heard that you all are improving, so keep up the good work and i'll see you all again on the 22nd yar?(= remember, keep up the good work!(= you can do it darlings(=

Monday, November 07, 2005

tomorrow is the start of Os, so all the best to everybody ya?Give your best shot!(=All of us can do it! Most importantly, believe in yourself(=
thank you God for giving me the strength.(=

Friday, November 04, 2005

all of a sudden, i feel that i didn't work very hard?But i know that i can do it, Os will be over very soon right?And just the next day after Os will be the tour. But wait. Can I do it?i'm doubting myself. why!!-erase erase. no no. i know that i can but is just this small part of me. ahhhhhhh.-screams.I ask you Lord to give me strength, make me strong. I know that it will be over real soon and i have all my kins supporting me. Lord, i know i just have to give my best shot, to have clarity of mind so that i can think clearly, i know, i know that there are people out there rooting for me and praying for me. I ask You Lord to bless all of them. I lift this prayer in your name. amen

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

Heys. Please please please do your very very best on friday okay?You all have to grab hold of this opportunity to really prove to him. We cannot afford to lose him at all.alright darlings? I'll be praying for all of you.Remember ya?

My productivity is very low today.ahhh.=( i went out to ask him emaths, went home and finished off that chapter of ss. that's all i did today. -frowns. It's now down to 5 days, I can even count it with one hand.I think after I log off I'll get myself to do some emaths./=

I'm thinking of popping by tomorrow to see how they are doing. Should i? Or should I just locked myself in my room and face the books that I have to study? I really really want to see them. I miss them very badly.


Tuesday, November 01, 2005

I'm on fire again! Hallelujah! Praise the Lord!

happy birthday terri!(=

Monday, October 31, 2005

candle on the water:
I'll be your candle on the water;
my love for you will always burn;
I know you're lost and drifting,
but the clouds are lifting;
don't give up, you have somewhere to turn.

I'll be your candle on the water;
Till ev'ry wave is warm and bright.
My soul is there beside you;
Let this candle guide you;
Soon you'll see a golden stream of light.

A cold and friendless tide has found you;
Don't let the stormy darkness pull you down.
I'll paint a ray of hope around you,
circling in the air,
lighted by a prayer,
lighted by a prayer.

I'll be your candle on the water;
this flame inside of me will grow.
Keep holding on; You'll make it!
Here's my hand, so take it!
Look for me, reaching out to show,
as sure as rivers flow,
I'll never let you go.

I just felt like putting the lyrics of this song here. I sang this in sacp choir. umm..okay, let me correct myself, i didn't actually sang it, I played the accompaniment.I was playing and singing it just now, and tears just rolled down my cheeks. This song is just so innocent but it is full of meanings.

Sunday, October 30, 2005

I ask for strength from You O God.

Monday, October 24, 2005

Fifteen more days to Os studying. It is coming very soon, but I know it will end soon too. I am really looking forward for the activities after my exam. Like feasting with them, shopping, going for competition to Prague etc.(=

Back to the airport days. We floated back to the airport, just that we changed the venue. We once said about changing study place, but in the end, we are still stuck at the airport. Oh ya. One good news!!! I have completed my chem syllabus last night at 2156 at the viewing mall. Can you sense my joy???=D Yesterday sc, fer and I saw our dearest beybey!!She said eh! when she saw us. And even told his son how naughty we were. She was quite sweet because she walked passed us with the intention of saying bye. The second we saw her was when she was coming down the escalator. Together with her husband, son and mother-in-law or her mum. Beybey was blushing!!!!haha. she accused us of stalking her. And this time round, she said to her son this: see!They all so naughty, have not start studying. Haha.ahhh..i miss her a lot.(=

Prelims are over. The number of days left for me to study is decreasing day by day, so I have to make use of the time that I have left. I guess after updating, I will be mugging lit as I’ve promised.3 days lit, 2 days ss, 2 days geog. This week is humanities week. I dont have a choice I guess, I still have to face them, even though how much I dislike it.

siewcheng->my study khaki, study hard okay? We can do it yar?!?Remember our feast!! Thanks for bearing with my endless laughter last night.(= love you panda
nic->xiexie ni(=

Lord, I pray for strength over me as I prepare for my coming exam, that I will have the determination and the perseverance to not to give up. I pray for my friends who may be struggling during this period, may they be strong as well.

Thursday, October 20, 2005

practical exam is tomorrow. All the best okay? Don't panic. Read instructions carefully for God is with you always yar?(=

good luck!

Saturday, October 15, 2005

I think I'm considered as ex-sacian alr.heh.Anyway, got back a lot of things, cca cert, report book. MOTIVATION!YES. motivation.heh.i miss you!!hmmm..I just counted 23 more days to Os!And prac is on thursday. As usual, my class got the 3rd shift. But I can wake up later. I guess I'll be studying for my prac.For both physics and chemistry.

Hmmmm..Today I went for vj openhouse with shirs. It was quite fun!!And I tell you, joce was so enthu just about everything.fencing. badminton. flying fox. And shirs was crazy about TSD. Went for choir's performance.-thumbs up(=We walked about with karen. We tried out soccer!!Shirs and I didn't want to try as we were wearing slippers.hah..but we still did in the end. I had free ice-cream!heh. I saw quite a lot of sacians.4/7 and 4/6 people. heh.Hmmm..overall i think vj openhouse was not that bad, it was quite fun(=. And I got to sun tan with shirs for a while.But I didn't get my tan.

hmm..23 more days to Os. Come on shirs!!let's work!!!Our dream...

panda->get well soon okay?(= my study khaki. love you.-hugs.

Thursday, October 13, 2005

Some say love, it is a river that drowns the tender reed
Some say love, it is razor that leaves your soul to bleed
Some say love, it is a hunger, an endless aching need
I say love, it is a flower & you its only seed

It's the heart afraid of breaking that never learns to dance
Its the dream afraid of waking that never takes the chance
It's the one who won't be taken, who cannot seem to give
And the soul afraid of dying that never learns to live

When the night has been too lonely & the road has been too long
And you think that love is only for the lucky & the strong
Just remember in the winter far beneath the bitter snows
Lies the seed that with the sun's love in the spring becomes the rose

heh. I just felt like putting that.(= the title of this song is the rose.
Friday is the last day of school and which means Os is drawing nearer.
Anyway, i enjoyed myself today singing songs there.(=

Monday, October 10, 2005

telepathy is freaky. trust me.
hmmm..just a song for everyone(=
hide me now
under your wings
cover me
within your mighty hand

when the oceans rise
and thunders roar
i will soar with you
above the storm
father you are the king
over the flood
i will be still
and know you are god.

find rest my soul
in christ alone
know his power
in quietness and trust

this is the song which holds sentimental value to me.I guess some of you will know why.

Saturday, October 08, 2005

hello. i haven't been blogging.heh.yes.i know.bleahh.It has been a tiring week.Everyday I have to stay back until at least 5pm, either for tutorial or self-study. I think the special timetable is still quite alright, but is just the after school thingy that i'm not okay with. The school is literally forcing all 4-8ians to study our humans, especially ss.-sighs. Anyway, one more week of school and that's it. study break will start, and the number of days to Os will become smaller and smaller. And before we know it, it's the 20th of oct, sci prac. And then it'll be 7th nov.
Anyway, look forward for 22nd nov alrights(= That's the end of Os!!Hmmm..just one word to everyone out there..jiayou!(=

Sunday, October 02, 2005

i ask you Lord to give me strength. The strength that i need to carry on and not to give up even though i may feel like it. to grant me wisdom. to grant me faith, so that i will put my trust in you and leave everything up to you.Lord, I really would like You to hold my hand and to guide me through this period of time, so that I will have your guidance. I ask You Lord to open up my parents' hearts, so that your presence can touched them and may they be saved one day. Now when i think back, i think it was call from you that i picked up guitar, and i really thank God for that, i didn't know i have that talent.but most importantly, i think that it was a call from you is because You know that i can't go to church, so maybe to pick up guitar is to praise and worship You at home!And whenever I worship you with my guitar, I could feel the presence of God in my room. How wonderful You are(:Hallejulah!

Saturday, October 01, 2005

This week's afternoon I've been devoted to mostly amaths.Doing all the model papers and so on. We've been getting back our papers this week and my results are not very fantastic, but i will continue to work hard because i know that i can do it! Well, that's what 55% of me is saying, the rest of me just want to give everything up, but I know that it is not worth to do so at this point of time where I've already come so far, it's the last lap. I know that I can make it and so can you guys too.Let's work hard together okay?(:

thanks guys for being there all these while.

Thursday, September 29, 2005

All are gone.

Sunday, September 25, 2005

Pictures tell a thousand words.In another month's time, we won't be singing the school song and will be called ex-sacians.courageously with heads held high..for virtue true nobility we strive..i spent 8 years of my life in sac and made many friends, though some i've lost contact with and even became hi-bye friends,they still made a difference in my life. Spending 11 years of my life singing in the choir, and the most challenging period was when i've taken on the role as th e president, those ups and downs, when i needed my friends most, they've been there for me..What i want to say is an endless list....

Saturday, September 24, 2005

Tonight is the special night for all of us who are graduating. the ceremony went alright. And I took lots of photos with my friends too(:So i just thought of putting some photos here.(:
grad night was really an unforgettable moment for me.the above photo is THE SIX.(: The recess gang. plus the animals. left to right: lion,pig,cow,penguin,panda,kangaroo. I will keep the wonderful and unforgettable moments that we've spent in my heart. Those ups and downs. thanks for being there for me when i'm just not in the mood and trying to cheer me up.
i love you guys(:my dar.(: Who has been there for me all these while. Encouraging me, telling me not to give up. She's also my wonderful sister, who just sees so much in me. She's also the one who keep telling me to breakthrough and here i am. An almost one year old(: We are half of room, the other half is not present tonight. heh. but yarr. Room brings back really a lot a lot of memories, and she's the one whom i share my deep thoughts with, and never fails to lend me that listening ear. i love you dar(:Our form teachers.(:left is mrs lim aka beybey. right is mrs heng aka hengheng.
beybey's "good morning girls" in her that tone. and hengheng's "stand girls" in her that tone. I will not forget that.heh.Plus all those lessons.(: emaths and maths teachers. my form teachers(:3 years with hengheng and 2 years with beybey.ahhh.teachers.(: The wonderful people in my life.(:I will miss them.=/
And last but not least. my parents, for bringing me up and grooming me to become what i am today(: without both of you, i won't even be here. (:thank you.

Friday, September 23, 2005

We completed the movie today and watched Joy Luck Club. I think it's more interesting thatnMonalisa's smile.Geog we did correction for mapwork, but we didn't get back our paper though. but I think we didn't do well for geog because Ms Tan said that don't expect high marks. Bio girls had practical while the lit girls were wasting time watching Joy Luck Club.-.-. Ms A lim took over PC to teach us some technics for answering seq, i think it was quite good.(: I've always like her lessons.Emaths did correction for paper 2 qns 2, the qns on BREAD.beybey said that qns is not well done, and we'll be getting emaths paper 2 next week. hmmm. Chem had prac in the lab and got back our prelim prac. barhh..i almost failed while somebody scored 13!!and that is panda.-shakes head.anyway, umm..your stuff is with me. so yar.(:

.After school, linette went opposite school to have her eyebrows trimmed and hair trimmed, and we set off to tampines. Had lunch and then walked to cs. Oh!!Let me tell you all something. we saw chelsea doing PEDICURE in nails in vouge!!lol. She was so embarrassed cuz we were laughing and even with the cap, she got no where to hide her then saw cassan and ping shopping at lvl 2 as well. Walked over to tm. adlin bought cucumber for facial!!!for the FIRST i just had to make that bold.lalala.(:

is tomorrow!!!!((: Whee! I can't wait for it to start, and I can't wait for it to be over.haha. I know is kind of contradicting though.heh.I'm meeting fer to have our hair done, then fetch adlin from her condo then head off to SP!!lalala(:Remember to take photo with me okay??-smiles.

He knows the way that I take; when He has tested me, I shall come forth as gold. —Job 23:10

Wednesday, September 21, 2005

end of prelims!WOOHOO
hmm..I was feeling so sleepy while shading the ovals this morning. But prelims is over!!(: sc, wq and I went to catch a movie and played 3 games of bowling, and each of us won a game each.heh.I enjoyed myself today.heh.(: At the bowling alley, there's this guy who is playing at lane 3 who kept looking at us.-.-. He even CLAPPED when I had strike and spare
Anyway, lessons resume tomorrow and grad night rehearsal after that.
haha.i can't wait for grad night.Everyone gonna be dressed prettily.
the intensive revision is coming back!!SO yup.
number days to Os:forty-eight

One of them, when he saw that he was healed, returned, and with a loud voice glorified God. —Luke 17:15

Tuesday, September 20, 2005

heh.I just felt like putting that. so yar.(:
Let me say something. heh.panda is so SWEET!!heh.(: She msg me in the morning to wish me good touched. (:
Anyway, i can't wait for tomorrow!Whee.

Monday, September 19, 2005

lit and more lit!!AHHHH=(
=/Today is Sunday. Lit paper is only a day away!! think i will just end up writing rubbish and flunk the whole paper like how i did it in mid-year.But after tomorrow should be alright i guess. Just have to do a lot of MCQ, then end of prelims!!!
hmmm..i wonder if they all want to go anywhere on tuesday or not.. a draining period, but hang in there everyone, it's ending soon yar?(:

It started with window shopping but ended with me buying two things.
I enjoyed myself(:
the breakfast and all.
the shop hopping.(:
thankies kangaroo.

Fight the good fight of faith, lay hold on eternal life. —1 Timothy 6:12
The above involves hard work. Worshipping and praising. Praying. Where have it all gone to?When you do not drink water, you get dehydrated and everything internally shuts down and you will die. The same goes here. I need spiritual water. But I need to find it myself. I don't want to get dehydrated. I don't want to die. Where is that fire? That was burning so strong before? It seems to dim now. The weekends that I really looked forward to at church, just worshipping and praising God and lied about going to the movies. Making new friends, enjoying my members' company, how they celebrated my birthday this year. Those powerful messages. I miss those times.
I am not going to give it all up. It will cost too much. I will still hold dearly to it and try to revive it in whatever ways that I can. I've come a long way, having crossed that finishing line last year whereby another chapter of my life unfolds. It is another race and I want to be racing eternally, for God.